“I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
I do not handle death very well. It stirs up a lot of military memories that I would rather forget. Last month, I lost a good friend to a heart attack. Today, my cousin Dan is going to be the Lord. He had a brain aneurysm. I am sad. I am sad because I love Dan. Dan was a guy who always could make me laugh. He was the type of guy that would make you forget about problems. He always seemed happy and his laugh was one of those laughs that made you feel like he truly enjoyed your company. Dan will be missed. Rest in peace Danny Boy.
I am also sad because I regret not being in communication with him like I once was. As I have gotten older, my earthly life and responsibilities get in the way of me saying a simple hello to those who are close to me. Why am I so caught up in my life, that I forget to reach out to the ones I love? A simple hello to see how they are feeling or how their life is going. God has given us the technology to say hello to someone or to ask how they are doing from anywhere in the world at a moments notice. Yet, it seems difficult for me to do this.
When I was in the military, death was violent. It came in ways that made me shut down both physically and emotionally. I have come to realize that I still have those effects today. Sometimes, I go through waves of being trapped in my own head. I think too much about the past. We as veterans cannot erase those images or those moments of horror. They are imprinted in our brains and in our dreams.
Thankfully, there are good people who work very hard at helping us veterans get through tough times. If you are veteran or know a veteran that is dealing with mental health or they just need someone to talk with please, help them and encourage them to seek help. Do not let a loved one sit in sorrow.
Veterans Crisis Line 1800-273-8255 press 1
Scottsdale Bible Church pastor-on-call
Lord, I thank you for helping in times of need. You know the feeling of sorrow. Help us veterans get the guidance we need so we can live a life of peace. I pray for my family and any other family going through a loss. May you comfort them and help them through their difficult time. We love you and we are forever thankful.